The difference between the subtle mind exercise and the loving-kindness exercise is success and failure. I had an extremely difficult time with the loving-kindness exercise, but I found the subtle mind exercise to be therapeutic and transforming! The subtle mind helped me to focus. This morning, I really looked forward to doing this exercise. I feel so stressed, and my mind is just everywhere. I am worrying about everything going on in my life, and I was completely frazzled.
I said a little prayer before engaging in the subtle mind exercise. I prayed that I would experience the benefits of a subtle mind because it seems like the cure for many of my anxiety problems. Of course, my mind wandered in a million different directions, but each and every time, I brought it back to the focus of breathing which forced me to let go of the thoughts that often consume me! I really did not feel frustrated at all during this exercise.
I like to add my own little spin on these exercises, so that they are in line with my beliefs and values. It is very easy to do because the goal of these exercises are very much in line with my beliefs. I am not supposed to be anxious or worry (Philippians 4:6). I am supposed to be still (Psalms 46:10). By focusing on my breathing, I take my mind away from these worries, and focus on the rise and fall of my stomach (diaphragmatic breathing would focus more on the stomach moving up and down rather than the chest).
The connection between spiritual, mental, and physical wellness cannot be distinguished from one another. They are all interconnected and affect each other. When one is not in balance, the others will not be either. This can be seen in me through many different aspects. For instance, I was eating paleo, losing weight, and feeling great. Mentally, I was in a great place. I felt more optimistic, had an overall sense of well-being. Physically, I felt great, wasn't suffering from joint pain, and was not suffering from acid reflux. I have not been eating well for a few months, and now my body is back to the old problems of joint pain and acid reflux. I have also gained a lot of weight back. Mentally, I have been feeling depressed and defeated. Spiritually, all I feel is empty and unfulfilled because I lack the motivation and energy to change it. The thing is that I know all of the right things to do, but I am having the most difficult time doing any of it. I cannot change this unless I begin with a mental change because changing the way that I think is the only way that I can change my behaviors. It is extremely difficult. There is a driving force much deeper than knowledge that forces us to make changes. It is deeper than how we feel physically. I believe that driving force is spiritual.
Thank you,
Amy
Amy,
ReplyDeleteI had a very similar experience as you did with this exercise. I struggled with the loving-kindness exercise. I wasn't able to focus or visualize what was being suggested. This week's subtle mind was a lot easier for me. I felt very calm, relaxed, and it really helped release the stress that I was feeling earlier. I use deep breathing techniques on a regular basis anytime I am stressed or feeling anxiety, so this exercise was something I was familiar with. I'm glad it worked for you as well and seemed to release any stress you were feeling!
Hi Amy,
ReplyDeleteIt is interesting how each of us react differently to the exercises. I was quite the opposite of you. I did not have any problems with the loving kindness exercise. I have listened to the subtle mind a couple of times and it is a little more effective than it was the first time so I am sure with a little more practice, the subtle mind exercise will be a great resource for me.
I know the feeling... It is amazing how the mind, body and spirit work together, I go through the same things you are describing when one part gets out of balance. When I get depressed, I stop eating right and gain weight. This causes further depression and doubt. Until finally, I have to find a way to dig myself out of the a deep and dark place. I absolutely loved the subtle mind audio and I found it much more effective for me than the loving kindness. So, I guess I have my homework cut out for me in finding a way to open up. Thank you for your post. Cheers!
ReplyDeleteAaron